disappointed...

i went up to Hope College this weekend and it wasn't what i wanted it to be. I wanted to fall in love with that school. some of my best friends really like that school and i wanted to be able to go to college with my best friends. But it didn't feel right. It didn't feel very Christ centered even tho it's a Christian college. yes it is a very prestigous college but that's not what i'm looking for. I want a place where i can grow in my faith. I want a place where i can study the bible with my friends and pray with them. I dont want to find my friend in his dorm room playing video games. it would be better to find him reading the Word. i want to enjoy chapel. love it. it was weird at Hope. I loved seeing everyone there voluntarily and raising their hands to God but it just wasn't right. i need a place to call home. i want a place where classes teaching about Jesus and the Bible are required. I want a place with rules that will help me keep a Christian life. I want a place where i can make a difference. that is not Hope. hopefully I'll get into the Naz or Cedarville. oh geeze...