Lately i have been feeling like crap. A lot of stuf has been happening that has made me feel so angry and depressed. (Forgive me for i'm not going to write the details on here so the entire internet world may see. But if you want to know, just ask and we'll see what happens.) Anyway, life has been very shitty lately. I've lost friends. I've been in a bad mood day after day. I've been more depressed than I ever have. I've been wondering, "Where is God?" Now, i know that He's always there but i'm the stupid one who neglects Him, but i feel like i've been crying out for help and He hasn't been coming. So i've been pissed at Him. That's not good. So what's up with me? How long am i going to be feel like this? When will i finally have Hope that a better day will come? idk. But onto the real point of this entry.....i have learned that even in the worst of moments, good things can happen, and God can certainly be known in all situations. From what i've been going through, I have developed new, healthy relationships. With people that show me love and let me know that they care about me. I have been taught many things by God because of what has happened. I think i have even gained a bit of hope. Now that's saying something. Now, i'm getting reconnected with God. Or at least trying to. One way is people. People showing the love that Christ shows. Church. Learning. I've even felt kind of good lately. Not as depressed. That doesn't mean that an hour from now i won't be sad. But at least some things seem to be changing. So i love God. I love what He's been showing me (the good things.). And i am so thankful for the amazing people in my life. I love you all. :)
I feel like i just rambled on for a long time. I hope it was enjoyable. It was good writing everything out. that felt good.
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